This should be brief. The tremors are subsiding and most of the visual hallucinations are gone. The worst part about cheese danish withdrawal is the thick mucosy discharge I blow out of my nose every 30-40 minutes. You don't want to know what color the stuff is. I will put up pictures if you actually do, which would be ridiculous but hey, I am going through massive withdrawals and will probably write about absolute nonsense anyhow.
Let me say how love is related to addiction. The heart, it is...a fickle whore at BEST. Sometimes people aren't on the same page, so to speak, and relationships fail or stagnate or something else that is not positive that isn't coming to mind. Break ups happen. Hearts don't heal nice and neatly though. Sometimes we make clean breaks. Sometimes we fall backwards down the steps and hit our heads on every single step on the "trip."
And a lot like black holes, love will suck you in whether you are ready for it or not, whether you LIKE it or not. I do not LIKE love, but I cannot help but admit that is an emotion I experience. And you don't get to pick WHO you love, much like you cannot FORCE anyone to love you back.
It is a strange dance, dating, relationships. You feel each other out. Maybe you feel each other up. I don't know what you do during your mating rituals, and I don't want to know. When I go on dates I like to keep in mind the peacock. I like to think of it dancing and preening. I like to imagine that I am the colorful bird, and my tail is on full display. But some people, they do not appreciate peacocks. Sometimes the person you do your mating dance for has no desire to be sired.
Love is more than just a biochemical reaction, just like addiction is more than a descriptive term or a medical condition or whatever the hell it is. Love is broader than any one person, and more overwhelming than any imaginable force, and it can be a very powerful tool and at the same time a very powerful weapon.
I pray that each of you use love as a tool. Because I know a lot of people use love to manipulate others as a means to an end.
Addiction is not good. Love, in its truest sense, is not an addiction. It is not an addiction because you do not need it. And in that way, it is attracted to you, much like gravity pulling in a meteorite towards Earth's center. And if you truly Love something, you will allow that person any amount of freedom, because you have no expectations for that person. And you can let that person walk away from you. And you can truly love that person from afar for the rest of your life, if that is what you choose to do. That is what the real stuff is. Real love is not a means to an end.
We do not write the rules, we only try to learn them so we might play by them and succeed.
Listen to a record sometime when you get a chance. Take some personal time and go for a walk outside. Try to reduce your footprint on the ecosystem by paying close attention to every thing you do and monitor the consequences for your actions. If you do this, you can make adjustments, and you can improve. Statistics show that even adults have very plastic neuronal growth, albeit not as much as children, but we can change our wiring. We can make ourselves into whatever we want to be. I don't know about you, but I consider that to be a tremendous amount of responsibility. Are you up to the challenge?
The cheese danish I bought yesterday, yeah, its gone. I didn't eat it, though. I gave it to a stranger.
Deuces.
Acclaimed self help guru Felson Mitchell dropping some knowledge... New Poll for New Year. Who should be President?
Dear Felson,
ReplyDeleteI thought you were supposed to be making us feel better? Not that you don't have sad times too, but this blog is a little depressing and sad. I can respect that, though. Just sayin'...
Tesh, I am sorry. I think that this is actually quite uplifting. I know that there is a lot of painful things in love and in life, but it is the pain and the bullcrap that make us appreciate the good stuff, like what Kenny Chesney was talking about. The most important person to love is yourself! If you can do this, and it is TOUGH...then you don't need anyone else to love you. And when you don't need other people to love you, that is when they give you their love unconditionally.
ReplyDeleteMy Dearest Felson,
ReplyDeleteI could not disagree more! I do think you have one thing SO right, and that is to love yourself unconditionally. This is was Jesus was talking about too, which kind of makes Kenny Chesney look like taking advice from a monkey (not that I am comparing Kenny Chesney to a monkey, although I'd be ok with that in most cases). But, Jesus was also talking about something else, and that is to love other people as well.
I think we DO need love from other people, Felson. I think we need it in today's hard times even more. Jesus taught that God loves us unconditionally, and that we should all strive to be more like Him. Christianity teaches us that Jesus loves us unconditionally, and that we should all strive to be more like Him.
This idea and belief to love other people unconditionally is something that I believe we were created with, and that we NEED because it is part of us, part of our very existence! We are all created as sparks from God, and therefore, we were all created with not only the ability to love others unconditionally, but the need and want to. And since it is something we are instilled with, it is something we do whether we want to, like it, or not.
You said that love is not an addiction because we do not need it. I say love is not an addiction because it is and forever will be a deeper part of us, to our very core, and there is nothing you can do to try to get rid of this desire to love others. And they will love you back, too. I say love can not be really, truly compared to an addiction. You were right in saying that we can not choose who we love. Sometimes, that just happens. Why does that happen, that we fall in love with people and can not control it? Well, doesn't that perfectly fit what Teshia Polley is saying? It's because it is part of us, part of how we think and what we are here to do, whether we want to or not.
Sorry to take over your blog Felson. That was not my intention. You say you want feedback, so here is mine. I think this is why your blog depressed me a little bit.
Sincerely,
Teshia