A holly jolly christ-ex.

When did hearing Christmas music over and over become such a drag?

What the hell is wrong with me?  Where is my Christmas spirit?

I must have lost it somewhere in the last ten years.  I used to be so excited for Christmas, now I can't wait for the holidays to be over.

Everyone seems happy.  Cuddling by fireplaces and getting Lexus' and whatnot.  Why is there such disparity from the ultra rich to the middle class American, if such a thing even exists?

I do have a personal relationship with Jesus.  I am an Atheist turned Buddhist turned Jesus lover.

This should be the happiest time of year.  But it isn't....

I just can't help but think of the so very many people that have it worse than me, a quantity which is astounding in its vastness.  I can't help but see the absolute worst qualities in other people.  It makes me feel like I am a very sick person.  Either that or I am normal, and everything around me is sick.

Whatever for should Adam eat from the tree of Knowledge?

Is not the dog, unconscious as it is, happy?

The red pill?  The blue pill?

It is a timeless battle, and I am not the first to live this insanity.

I pray for all of you, readers and non readers.  Literate, and illiterate.  I pray that you will remember the true nature of Jesus Christ.  Remember that he was amongst the lowest of the low.  And remember that God put him here for all of you.

I don't know what else to say. Feliz navi dumbass Mitchell is back in rehab, so we pray for him.

Don't mind anything about the Alps trip.  He was really just literally pulling all of that garbage out of his ass.

Adam C.