New Beginnings

I think that the whole Felson thing has run its course. So we are turning the page.  I am giving full control over Adam.

Thank you Felson, I am honored to take your place as blogmaster.  I am sorry that you don't feel the need to exist any more, but I think you have grown up quite a bit and just realizing that your course is complete is a big step forward and I applaud you.

I am Adam Honnold. 

Rather than to dwell on the loss, or dwell on a broken heart, or the world coming to an end, I want to dwell on the fact that I am so blessed.  First and foremost I want to thank my Mother, Jayne Honnold, and my Father, Kevin Honnold.  They don't ever come here, but if they did I would want them to see how much they mean to me.

I want to apologize to B Fad.  I doubt she comes to the site either, but I want her to know that I am forever indebted to her for helping me to face the very worst aspects of myself and to overcome that which was overcoming and destroying my life.  If it weren't for you, Blistex, I would never have faced my biggest demons and I couldn't say that I am one hundred percent clean....We may not be together any more, but I will always love you, and think about you in admiration for your strength and your level of compassion.

I was a smoker and pill taker.  If you or anyone you loves is on drugs, I pray for you.  Seek HELP. You might not believe in a higher power, but if it weren't for my faith in God and absolute LOVE, I would not be able to say I am clean.  I would love to take credit for my continuing recovery, but I find strength where no strength should exist, and I have no better explanation, so thank you GOD.  I encourage you to ASK for help, from a professional, from a friend, from a family member, but most importantly from God.  She does exist, I promise you that.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PjMrGU-tLw

I am here for anyone who needs to talk about addiction, recovery, relationships, and God.

If I have any purpose in this life, it is to be sober, and a beacon of light for those who are dispondant and without hope.  I often feel like I have nothing in this world, so know that you are not alone in your dispair.

I created Felson as an outlet...a way to explore ideas and "get out of myself".  He is completely fictional in all senses, but he is a part of me now, and I care for him so very much.  Which is why I am putting him away.  His "death" is really nothing more than a celebration of my own life.

I am Adam Honnold.  I am a writer, and a human.  I have needs and wants and love in my heart.  I am so very thankful for all the blessings in my life, and I will continue to fight the good fight.